Wednesday, October 30, 2013

some more late night thoughts

Sometimes i wondered how a person could do that in public- watch anime, play with those pokemon or yugioh, talk loudly with their friends. Wear this, wear that. Wear those crazy witch like leggings MONTHS before halloween, or literally have rainbow colored hair. But then i realize they are just so adamant on being themselves. Either that or being an annoying nuisance (with the talking loudly thing). and THEN i realize here i am, preaching about BEING YOURSELF when (although i have been changing) i haven't lived up to that. I mean with certain people the fear diminishes, and i can be myself because i have gained the feeling of acceptance from those people, but when people do that on a whim, i definitely get jealous. Jealous that i can't do that on my own sometimes. 
JEALOUSY
TURNING SAINTS INTO THE SEA

okay okay i will stop with my Killers moment. But you get the picture, i hope... haha(;

Now i have been changing, i have been unafraid to be myself. In a place of 36,000 it is quite easy to do. It has been my reason for everything, "oh i'll never see that kid again", after embarrassing myself, but even in a place of 36,000 that may still not happen. I just have to no longer care sometimes about not feeling accepted, but i can't get the idea in my head that there will be people that won't accept and appreciate you, even if you have never met the person. It is sad but humanity can be sick and twisted.  But that somehow makes everything so much greater. Light cannot exist with darkness, just like the Good guys can't exist without the bad. I mean that idea can seem pretty effed up, but due to the fact that we have bad moments help us to embrace the good moments so much better. The bad times also make us stronger.
I am not saying that i am thankful bad things happen in the world, thank goodness for terrorism, for the still-existing KKK. NO. i am not saying that. and even then, when the bad guys exist, the good guys have to, too. And although it may seem childish to think "THe good guys always win" they DO, even if they win in this life, they won't win in the next, regardless of your religion.
So i tell you dear readers, yeah my posts, they may now seem hypocritical. But these are thoughts i WANT to live by, i want to put into my everyday moments and life. I want to smile every moment of every day, but that isn't humanely possibly. I want to believe in myself, but i can't seem to find that in myself either. Now that is "humanely possible" to believe in yourself, it just is so hard for me sometimes. I didn't grow up in a state of abuse, i have a wonderful and loving family. I just took every word pointing at me, i let every knife thrown at me, stab me. Those big and small. So even when i say "Believe in yourself! Don't think of what others think!" although i may not be living up to just yet, those are true words that ring in my body and soul.
I will, in some moment and time, not know the feeling of NOT believing in myself. soon, hopefully(:

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

UPDATED music, and such!(: Check it ^^^^^

GUESS WHAT?!
updated my music, like i always do when i get bored with some songs, feel free to flip through them!!(: I have a feeling this playlist will be kept on here for a while!
I have also taken a TONNNNN of videos and pics, i may/may have not posted on my other networking sites, that i hope to compile into an awesome video!(: Well at least in MY eyes it will be awesome!! So keep an eye out for that which may just come in a few weeks!!!

Monday, October 28, 2013

Day sucks? read below! Day rocks? STILLL read below(;

They weren't lying when they said college is one of the best experiences. I have only been here for a few months and i already cannot agree more(:
I have met so many new people, and i have tried so many new things.
YOU TOTALLY MUST NOT BE SO SCARED ABOUT LIFE! don't be afraid to try new things because in actuality, you always face something new, something different. why fear something that makes life so beautiful? why fear something that you cannot change? Staying in a room all day, won't make you a stranger to change, although that would very much be a sad way to live, if considered a life at all.
All over facebook i see posts of people reciving their college acceptance letters, posting it with thousands of excited-faced emoticons, and i realize, it was a YEAR when i experienced that, and damn hasn't time flown by! throughout this whole time, i have had the opportunity to be in LECTURES, not just "classes", with 200+ people. I have experienced being out all night with friends, yelling and losing my voice at the football games, high-fiving the football players, being on live tv, tried korean food, communal baths and living with an absolute stranger that is now an amazing friend(: I have also experienced fear, homesickness, and just THOUSANNNNDS of other experiences, i am just unable to list. Believe me when i say the bad, or scary experiences are EASILY outweighed by the awesome ones!!(:
SO go out tomorrow and just LIVE. embrace the day, so much that you can't stop from smiling. Looking out at the world with a smile, is also said to lead to good health throughout life, just by the way!

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

IMPORTANT stuff below!(:

I can't post it on the side for some reason.. so here is some contact information!-
my twitter!!- @crashnlikewaves GO FOLLOW ME!(:
my youtube account- kati scarlett
oh and ASK ME A QUESTION! - http://ask.fm/katiscarlett
^requires no signup and you are anonymous! so ask me any question and the funniest Qs i get i will be posting about!
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Okay so i had a new experience today! i got on okaynow.com with a good friend of mine and it was an AWESOME experience. for those that don't know the site, definitely check it out! we sang and got many comments from viewers and votes to keep us on longer!!(:
I am also working on another cover to sing (the song is a surprise!) and i am really excited! I may film it and post it tomorrow, but it'll definitely be on before next week!
ANDDD  on even better news, I DON'T HAVE HOMEWORK! sooo i am going to sleep early xD
love y'all!(:

Friday, October 4, 2013

Food for Thought- World View

Have you ever walked down the street, and looked and took in everything around you? so much that you began to think, i wonder what it is like in Brazil right now, or i wonder what people in Australia walk out to every morning when going to school or work. I am an international studies major and these thoughts always clog my brain. Think about it. Someone around the world may be wanting to see what is going on in the eyes of an American, or an Australian, a Russian, a New Zealander etc. So next time you walk around in your town, city, country take everything in, enjoy every experience, because someone around the world may wish to see everything through your eyes.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Update!(:

I know it has definitely been a while and i definitely apologize for that! I opened up my page a few minutes ago though, and i was REALLY surprised that i had a ton more pageviews. So for those that came across my page, even accidentally, thank you for checking it out!!

OKAY so i am practicing on a new song, it is called Sweater Weather and it is honestly a SUPER fun song to sing. I DID mess up, including on my strumming, but i sent this to my brother josh and my mom just for fun. LITERALLY (as seen on title to prove my point as well).I tend to send vids to my mom of me singing every week or so for some weird reason, haha(: Feel free to skip to like 0:30 because i am talking to Maria in the beginning. I just didn't delete it though because i thought my face looked hilarious when i sneezed. xD

Honestly i have been in Denton for a month now and i have literally had no singing voice for like half of it. My allergies have made my voice raspy, and i can't really sing much and it truly does break my heart sometimes): AHHHH WELLL i am just focusing on getting better.
you know what makes you better? sleep! which i am getting none of. Good thing UNT has a 24 hour library. I am honestly wondering if i should stay up or not because i have class in only a few hours. If i do this is my first college all-nighter, and i am next to my friend (who is taking 19 hrs worth of classes) and this is her 13th. OMG WHUT. So for those that are thinking about UNT as a school, The library here is awesome, and everyone is really helpful, i just hope that you don't spend an all-nighter here, and get some rest.
ALSO when thinking of UNT and "everyone is helpful thing" i totally LOVE the atmosphere here. I pass by people singing, sitting with their guitar/ukulele, tight-rope walking, freaking EVERYTHING. Not to mention i just got free coffee (i am sitting in the cyber cafe in the library right now as i type) haha WOOP!(: The campus is truly diverse and some people here hold doors for each other. Smiling at a stranger is also not common and it really does give me hope about society. <3 (:
You know what is also really fun to do here, bring back doughnuts from home. Yuh that's right, ROUND ROCK DONUTS. i don't know how many surprised faces i have seen when i bring someone the Texas Sized Donut. hahahah(:
Now i am going to go, and get some shuteye. I will definitely start posting updates more often!
AGAIN: thank you so much for reading, and checking out my page. i am definitely super thankful(:

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Remembering 9/11 ; We Will Never Forget

I was only 6 years old, but i too remember where i was this day, 12 years ago.  I was sitting at home, in the television room, while my father was watching the news. I remembered that at this time both towers were hit, and my father was talking to my mother on the phone, worried sick about her because she works in a federal building (meaning she had worked for the government). At that point in time i didn't really know what had happened, until my mother tried describing it to me that day. The atmosphere, the whole world seemed so different to me that day.
.world trade center tower explodes
For those that don't know of what happened on 9/11 in 2001, planes were hijacked by the terrorist organization Al-Qaeda and were flown into the twin towers, the North first, followed by the South tower at around 9am, 20 minutes after the first tower was hit. Another plane hit the pentagon and a 4th, was headed to Washington DC but due to the heroic actions of the passengers (who overthrew the terrorists), crashed in a pasture killing all on-board. Almost 3,000 perished in this traumatic time for the USA, including many firefighters who fearlessly went into the towers, before it collapsed on them. People jumped out of the windows, even a hundred floors up to escape death from Fire, and thousands were waiting for help that couldn't and never came for them.
This wasn't just a crime on the United States but a crime on humanity, said one person and i agree with it. Because of this horrible event, security was heightened in the states, New York economy was horrible, every american felt personally hurt, affected and angry as well. This anger eventually started a war against terrorism, which wasn't really successful until the death of Osama Bin Laden. 
(outside the capital after news of Bin Laden's death 5/1/11)

To this day, since then we have experienced many terrorist attacks, sadly. I also understand these attacks haven't just happened in the USA, but in Europe as well, or other countries. I also came across this video on the internet (above). It was honestly very touching to see that so many countries grieved together along with us some even from those countries, and grieved for those killed in the horrible attacks, as well as for those that lost fathers, mothers, brothers, and sisters, neighbors and friends.
“Remember the hours after September 11th when we came together as one to answer the attack against our homeland. We drew strength when our firefighters ran upstairs and risked their lives so that others might live; when rescuers rushed into smoke and fire at the Pentagon; when the men and women of Flight 93 sacrificed themselves to save our nation’s Capitol; when flags were hanging from front porches all across America, and strangers became friends. It was the worst day we have ever seen, but it brought out the best in all of us.” –Sen. John Kerry

So i pray that you took the time today to not only think of those that died on 9/11 (their families included in your thoughts) but also for those killed in the terrorist attacks that soon followed, all around the world. And although this horrible tragedy happened, we still have hope, that things will get better, and although we have been healing, we will never forget
Rest in Peace.

Monday, September 9, 2013

Peace out, Dallas
















Austin Texas (above) vs. Dallas Texas (Below)
This past weekend was definitely a blast, although i haven't gotten any information from the Green Tones and my audition like it was said i would. Needless to say, about that i am very depressed and worried. BUTTTT we should just transfer to the good, or FUNNY news i should say.
My family visited this past friday to saturday, i had the opportunity to show them around Denton, AND i got a tv. My parents love me<3 haha(: But they left at around 4 (sat.), and i just went back to my room and cried. For one, i am a girl so it isn't SO bad crying and i fully embrace having crazy emotions because that makes us look normal at around these times. While i was sulking i began texting my friend who invited me to go to Downtown Dallas, with hopes of hitting up a dance club/hall. I knew i NEEDED to go to get out of this homesickness so i dressed up, and piled in along with 6 other people and hit the road! IT WAS VERY LEGAL, we all had seat-belts (just in case my mom happens to read this.. love you mom!). I was really excited, and i had never been to Downtown Dallas before. I was born in Austin, and raised 20 minutes or less outside of Austin apart from 3 years where i lived in Olathe Kansas during elementary school. Driving there was definitely an interesting experience! Jonathan our friend that drove was AWESOME as always, and Elora our "DJ" well.. she found some interesting music. We rode into the mainstreet of downtown Dallas listening to Opera (the music, not the person), which was REALLY interesting. Getting there, the place we wanted to was at capacity, so we decided to walk around for an hour or more exploring and taking in the nightlife, and it was definitely so gorgeous. There was so many lit-up buildings and above all so many CARS. One other thing i found out, Dallas has A LOT OF CRAZY DRIVERS. As we were trying to leave Dallas we got into a tussle with a car beside us who was being such a bitch. Now i am so sorry for my language but considering the fact that Elora and I (who were sitting on the right side) were the closest to the driver and would've gotten hurt the WORST in an impact (ESPECIALLY Elora) y'all should let it slide! Now the story: The signs on the road due to a collision up ahead required us to merge with her lane and she didn't dare let us get ahead. When the car in front of her sped up we took advantage and as we put on the blinker and turned that way she ALL OF A SUDDEN sped up and didn't let us TWICE. LITERALLY. Obviously i still have some vent up anger over this, sorry. On the bright side, it was very funny seeing all of us getting heated up in the car yelling "IS SHE SERIOUS?!" to each other.

 Next thing you know we get on the wrong exit, and take a big circle, making our drive home like 2 hours which was kind of funny. We got back into the school at around 1am, and turned into the street and parked in front of Maple, one of my friend's halls (dormitory). We waited for her to go change, as we were planning to carry on the night with some tobacco-less hookah (meaning this form of hookah was just water vapor and flavoring).  As we were all talking 10 minutes passed and we were wondering if we should get some food or something while this is taking so long, but decide not to, thank goodness. Because, as it turns out we were on a one-way road, and let me give you a hint, we weren't right. AND to make it EVEN MORE FUNNY we didn't realize this until a cop pulled up in front of us. Luckily Jonathan was let off with a warning because we all don't really know the campus well STILL, because there are so many strange one way streets. We then went to Hookah, blew bubbles with smoke (which was awesome) and it was black-lit! it was amazing because they handed out highlighters that due to the blacklight were glowing, of course ink included. It was so much fun getting to draw happy faces and stuff on ourselves. We were there until 3:30am, and left to go home. Now if any of you live in Denton go to Kush, it is so much fun! Just beware the prices can get crazy.
Shout out and a big thanks to all my friends who turned my evening around!(:

Oh & needless to say i will always be an Austin girl, sorry Dallas, no hard feelings

(austin city limits music festival)

KEEP AUSTIN WEIRD(:

Sunday, September 1, 2013

You think you're cool?



Okay so i am sorry, but if you:
treat girls like they are meat
think you're hot shit
think it smart to yell ugly things at the other team (i.e you suck!)
don't care at all for a stranger's (of the opposite sex) personal space
give people you don't know bad looks
scream at strangers, perverted things from the car
are the stealer that took a phone straight from a person's hand, and ran off a few nights ago on campus
You're mean, and i don't appreciate it.

sorry i just figured you deserved to know the truth.
If you DON'T fall into those lines, congratulations(:
However if you HAVE done one thing, and you have learned your lesson, or have now realized it was wrong, no worries, you're cool.
unless you are the stealer, then you should turn yourself and that phone in, and i'll forgive you.
UNLESS you were already caught(?) sorry i should brush up on my information.
peaceskies.

Psychics, and Astrology

So many people think that astrological signs, and fortunes are a load of bull. This is what i got from my English teacher by the way! My opinion however for some reason i kind of WANT to believe in that, because if you believe in fortunes you believe that there could be a possibility for that to be in your future. I mean who doesn't want to know about the future. The idea that the number of kids you have or the amount of life you will experience is all read in "palm readings" but can this honestly be taken seriously? I mean i could use myself as an example, my hand does say i will have 4 kids, but you all MAY have to wait a while for that to happen. Palm readings and Psychics can be pretty popular especially for skeptics which i honestly don't understand, because you like laugh about how stupid it was after (?) yet you waste $5, $10, $15, maybe $20 to laugh at how stupid the Psychic person was. I don't know which ONE sounds more stupid. There is a part of me that believes my life can't be predicted, I make the decisions, and i can change my path anyway, nothing is or will ever be set in stone. You'd think people would also be receiving GOOD news but there are stories of people ALL OVER THE WEB about how frightened they are that the Psychic said they would never have a "soul mate" and i definitely feel bad. But there is a part of me that believes that there has to be some sort of truth to it, right? However if you get involved and don't get the news you hope to hear don't dwell on it, because remember, they are just there to get that $10 off your hands, whether they say the truth or make lies. BESIDES the fun thing about life is how it surprises us... right?

Now who believes in their astrological signs?
yeah i'm a leo,
apparently i:
"love being center stage"- well yeah that is true, haha is that weird..?
"leos are creative"- psh no. I WISH.
"never shy from the limelight"- ok.. true! BUT i am afraid in any way of showing off because i think that is kind of rude, so it takes me a while to get me to sing or do anything sometimes.
"is fearless"- pshh now HOLD UP. i am scared of the following: being judged, flying insects, rollercoasters, heights, overpasses, being in super fast cars, rides that have drops, ghosts, scary movies (sometimes..) ETC. fearless, pshhhhhuh.
"is dramatic"- hopefulllly that isn't the case.
"natural leaders and have a knack for inspiring others"- well i mean i DEFINITELY had my moments where i totally did not "inspire" the trumpet section.. uhm manyyy moments.
"is warm and enthusiastic"- sheesh hopefully i am that
"is well organized"- yeah, i WISH.
"is a romantic" OMG sooo true<3

Okay so i have just found that a lot of things match up and a lot of things don't, but then i realize who i am and what kind of person i am can't just be determined and presented online. hopefully...?

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

MARIA'S awkward day of school....

okay so my day was LAME compared to Maria's which definitely made me laugh. YOU SHOULD HEAR ABOUT THIS!
She happened to take a Human Relations into the World course, and according to the course description it's supposed to talk about how humans evolve in the world. Thinking that it was sociology, of some kind.
AND THESE ARE HER WORDS:
""So when i get there my professor says 'there is no such thing as a G spot it is a myth'. and i thought oh this can't go right... and so he was like 'you are all smart people you may or may not be sexually active but if you have come this far and isn't or have never been pregnant i salute you'. i realized this class is to describe how human sexuality works."
AND THEN SHE GETS INTO BIGGER DETAIL OF HOW WEIRD HER TEACHER IS but i will definitely not get into that because from her description is kind of disgusting.

I mean wouldn't it be awkward to take a sex ed class in college, with a professor that has no concern in the world for what kind of language he/she uses because we are all adults? Especially if you're thinking you're going into a SOCIOLOGY class.  IF any of you know Maria, you know that she is AFRAID of pregnant women, knows little of Sex (even littler than me). MARIA, i say drop it darlin. sounds weird.

First day of COLLEGE

So today i had four classes,
Political Science- 213 students 9am-9:50am
Geology- 121 students 11am-11:50am
English- 25 students 1pm-1:50pm
Geology Lab-25 students 3pm-4:50pm

ALRIGHTY^ so that was basically my schedule for today if any of you care. lol i know i really wouldn't
That is my WEDNESDAY schedule at least, my Mondays and Fridays are the same however they don't have the lab, that only meets once a week.
WHAT I HAPPENED to learn from the experience was that i can blend in very well. It is also not very similar to public school in any ways. No one messes around, if there is a pin drop someone will stare at you, or for example if your name is Kaitlin and your chair squeaks every time you lean back on it. -.- That honestly sucked. The seats have this kind of recliner thing which is cool! what ISN'T is that people are fiends, everyone wants the best seats. It is like an educational movie theater, however who would really be excited about that.. Welllll if it showed wild marine life i would be, but that isn't the point. I came 30 minutes early to geology just to sit in an already-created line of like 40 students, and i was like "greatttt". then MORE and MORE showed up, and i thought "is this as big as polisci?!" Thankfully it was like almost half, but still a LOT of students.
I came in with a mindset that i am gonna get s close to a 4.0 i can get, yet i can't get that if i don't spend like $50+ on textbooks and for english alone i already racked up to 3 books i needed to buy.
#poorcollegekids

Monday, August 26, 2013

OMG can you share some of that gorgeous?!

Dear You,

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” -Dr.Seuss 

On behalf of school starting tomorrow (besides myself) i thought i should post something like this. This is not just for certain people out there, certain ages, certain countries, certain schools because we have all felt self-conscious, weird, we have all felt judged. In my eyes if you have always been content with yourself, birth until now, your lying. This isn't a bad thing however because we oftentimes don't want to admit that we have thought badly about ourselves. There are definitely some things i wish i could change about me. A lot. Normally i wouldn't be saying things like this but i felt it must be said because if it is never said it will never be heard. Those that are suffering from these thoughts, you are not alone, and you never will be. It is perfectly normal to feel like an outsider sometimes. But let's change normal. Because this normal lifestyle isn't worth it. Sad thing is you aren't normal. You are You, and that is something that can never be recreated. Nothing can change you unless you choose to, No one can be you, because that spot is already taken. Now why is it not worth it to be normal? Trying to be normal oftentimes can obstruct you for being yourself. Now i am not saying go break the law, because guidelines like that must be followed. What i am saying, is although it isn't normal to see a person playing their ukulele and singing outside the dorms, do it anyways. Don't NOT do it, if it hasn't been done before. Don't let that stop you and don't be afraid to change it. Be yourself, and don't give a care in the world if this person gives you bad or strange looks, because honestly (and we all know this) there will always be a person to do that. We can change how much of an importance that has on us. SO when you walk in, on your first, second, or 32nd day of school or on the job, remember to be yourself, and don't give a care in the world. There will always be a person who doesn't approve, but just know there are many more approvers, friends, lovers and family members, than disapprovers.Don't ever let that change anything about you. Because you are you, a person that can't be recreated or found anywhere else.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Moved in! video to come soon!(:

Hello everyone!(: So up top is how my side of the room looks and i live in Bruce Hall at UNT (University of North Texas). I moved in yesterday and saying goodbye to my family was harder than i thought. I have however been texting my mom like crazy, or more like she has been doing that to me haha. Remember my last post? Well if not you should scroll down. I started freaking out about this roommate situation but strangely i haven't seen my roommate at all. Her and her items aren't here. She has literally not moved in which i find a little odd, even though classes are Wednesday. The Campus is HUGE and absolutely confusing but everyone i have met (although not much) have been super nice, inviting, and helpful. Especially this one guy last night. You may be thinking "oooh kaitin, what guy?!" but it is totally not like that! let me clarify about my "adventures last night".-

Yesterday i tripped after being dropped off from my friends after hanging out last night. RIGHT in front of my dorm.-.- It hurt so bad, and knowing my weak-ass ankles  knew i had twisted it (which i did..). There was a guy right outside talking on the phone that helped me out and opened the door for me making sure i was alright though which did help me out a lot. I walked in a very strange fashion towards my dorm room. Psh i probably looked super weird. I opened my door to a cold, dark room i haven't been into since i moved into it hours before. Needless to say i was frightened. Why?
Yes i can be afraid of the dark, but that wasn't just it.
If you didn't read my previous posts, Bruce hall is haunted.
Now some may find it weird but i do believe in "spirits", also to believe in the good, and to believe in angels, you have to believe in evil too. Now these ghosts are in no way "evil, or angels" apparently they are just here, thus being ghosts.
We have a repairman ghost. We also have Wanda, a girl that apparently died in the attic, and haunts the attic and the 4th floor. Phew i am glad i am only on the second floor. There is also a boiler room ghost, I've also heard of him being called Boiler room Bill. He has been known to open and close heavy metal industrial doors.
What about Bruce hall in its entirety? Bruce hall is the oldest residence hall on campus that is still open and was built in 1946 and opened in 1947.
On you tube all you'll find are videos of people trying to record ghostly phenomena, as they sit in the dark and pull out EVP recorders (to capture"ghost voices"). Bruce hall has also been visited by paranormal investigators as well.
So how did i sleep last night? with my light-up Seal Pillow-pet and my stringed decoration lights from Ikea. xD After hitting the hay i didn't wake up at ALL and i fell asleep pretty fast. Ever since then my fear has subsided.
Now i am not really scared of these kinds of things anymore (although it could be too early to tell haha), and i actually find Bruce's history quite interesting and that it adds character to the building. The room is again quite spacious, It also gives you the ability to bring and put in a 28in. flat-screen atop a large dresser with 8 drawers. Not to mention how lively it is! Music is being played everywhere at times considering that this is a hotspot for music majors because it is in between all the music buildings(: The dining hall is also pretty big as well, i will definitely post more pictures soon! Oh and here is a video of what else i bumped into last night. :

Thanks for reading, and until next time! haha talk to you all later(:

Monday, August 19, 2013

Today's Food for Thought

So as i neared 2 weeks for moving into UNT, they changed my roommate. *inhales and exhales deeply* which i would be slightly okay with if i could just get in contact with this new girl i will rooming with for the next school year. Now i am slightly worried, how bad could it be right? She looks nice! Now rooming in with a stranger (i was previously planning on it with a friend) and all i can think about is that movie Roommate which is DEFINITELY over-the-top creepy (as seen above).
So i am definitely irritated that i have been getting no responses. Should i bring a TV or is she planning on bringing one? what side of the room does she want, is it stingy if i pick it first? I hate that she isn't responding yet i pause, come to think of it i do that too. I usually never respond texts or to messages, not just because i am "busy", i may lose it,or i may not really care to check my inbox. And then i think shouldn't i hate myself for doing that too? Aren't i being hypocritical. But then you always have people saying "love yourself and your insecurities". But that statement is a tad hypocritical as well. First of all it is quite hard to love what you least like about yourself in a society so hell-bent on perfection. Perfect figure, perfect hair, perfect style, so Hollywood or should i say tumblr-worthy. second of all these people that say you should love yourself regardless PROBABLY wouldn't be saying this to a guy like Hitler. Oh you hate jews, that is still so lovely and beautiful. NOOOO!  Point is, we should love ourselves but we should also see and understand problems, and find solutions for those problems. It doesn't change you, it makes you grow as a person. Are you very introverted and you don't like that about yourself? Meet or start a conversation with at least 2 people a week. Bottom line, love yourself, your beauty and the imperfections, but don't be afraid of changing things too, no one is perfect. I am not saying GET A NOSE JOB or anything i promise!
ANYWAYSSS my mom is trying to get me to pack because i leave soon. yeahh i should do that.

Why hello there!(:


I will be posting on here, or at least attempt to post on here, daily. My name is Kaitlin but i like going by Kati Scarlett, simply because it is unique(: I am 18 and i was born and slightly raised in Central Texas (despite the 3 years in Kansas, wooop) and now Denton bound for college! I will be going to UNT or University of North Texas, and yes i WILL be posting pictures of Bruce Hall the dorm i will be staying in, namely because i was irritated that i couldn't find pictures of what it looked like in the inside when searching the halls. SORRY for the long rant but when all you find are youtube videos of people sitting in the dark halls doing EVP recordings (or recordings of ghost voices) you TENDDD to get a little creeped out. Gooood thing i have my light-up pillow to keep me warm, don't believe me i will post a pic. (:
okayy so I was a marching band geek in High School and may transfer that into college. I was in the Round Rock High School Dragon Band and i loved it because i saw our fine hours and our not-so-fine hours. Basic ally i saw the growth of a family and the growth of an exceptional band that i know will do amazingly.(: I also love to sing, i have just started learning the ukulele and hope to learn the guitar! My dream is to post pictures of the world as i travel on this blog, if i ever get around to that or even have MONEY to do that, so hopefully you will be seeing those soon. until tomorrow fellow bloggers(: